a song called, I Needed You

There's this song by chris brown, called i needed you and its about his father & how he wasn't around when he was growing up and like i can really really relate to that song like no other and it makes me cry when i hear it..i was going 2 download it but i changed my mind i don't want it on my zune(mp3 player) or my computer.....he was in my life for up 2 wut i can remember 6 or 7 years, then he left....became a drug addict that i found out about a year ago who knows wut he put mah mom thru, i was too young to know but as a kid i often wondered why he was never around but my stuff would come up missing and my dad would say, "I'll get you another one".......i was dumb 2 believe him but i never got my super nintendo back...smh..as much that has happened........i should hate him...but i don't.....God played His part....going 2 church taught me to forgive...but there's still this feeling deep inside me that's like so emotionless towards him.....like i dont care....idk wut it is......& like he calls sometimes & gives me this long ass speech saying "oh, I'm sorry this I'm sorry that, i know where we are now is where we shouldn't be" its the same shit over & over again and it gets old....you kinda late 2 be apologizing mah nigg....but I'm not the bitter type so i forgive him over & over again ......but i guess......i wonder wut I'd be like if he was around...wuld i be a better person? Or wuld i be worse......we'll never know but I'm happy with who i am as a person now & its not gonna change.....1 day he'll read this blog and will know the words i couldn't say....

i was talkin to KB when i was making my blog

VIVA LA KB!! lol ily!